this is fairly interesting

 Last night after returning home, Dad presented with his 大計: swapping my room with their room

He did some measurements and stuff and was talking about how we can reorganise different furniture in my new room (i.e. their room) (e.g. Bed, table)

They kept reassuring me with sentences like

I will have more private space and I have my aircon too

The air is fresher in their room

I will have a bigger longer table and it can adjust height too

I will have a wardrobe too

And kept saying no need to worry about them, and they won't intrude in my room too

Reassuring I can change anything I want.

My own thoughts:

Their room has a fixed giant wardrobe, so they definitely will come in to use the wardrobe)

Idk why they know I am a bit upset because I don't have aircon (the outflow is blocked by random stuff on the upper "bunk bed" (I meant to write it in the diary alongside I don't have a chair, but I just forgot, and I kept ranting I don't have a chair because I sort of know there's another thing I was missing which is aircon)

And we went to look at their room, I asked how about the 床頭板? (Cuz they planned the new bed would be rotated so I don't need the board thing)

And they suddenly both said NO! 

My mum said: it was customised by dad! While Dad said: other than that and the wardrobe, you can change anything else.

(Bro you don't say)

Also I was actually kinda pissed because I cleaned all the mould at my room, I vacuum every week, my room is clean, despite there's a lot of stuff. It used to be the room with the most dust as it was unused for a decade and I can literally smell and inhale the dust for the first half year I moved into the room

And now, I fixed it into my little wonderland, and you want me to swap into your super messy and mouldy room?????????????

And literally every time I enter their room I can immediately feel the air is not fresh, despite them having an aircon. It was the physically-not-deep-cleaned for many years type of air, which is worse than my despite-kept-masturbating-but-I-cycle-my-air type of air

Although IK both are gross af but bro, I'd rather smell my own smell than to inhale some unknown unhygienic air (I don't think they cleaned the wardrobe... really... after we moved in many years ago + Dad's breath while sleeping is really bad, I think the smell filled up the room)

bro

Also I feel bad for bringing riolu so maybe One day I will properly wash it first LMFAO sorry

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ANYWays aagufidhskjdshfk

also after Dad kept explaining his ideas, Mum suddenly said Oh I have a good idea!! Come to the room and I'll show you!! Dad was like I measured everything on the notebook we can just discuss using it (he made proportional memo slips for different furniture sizes)

Anyways we entered the room, and Mum was basically sharing her "original idea", which is identical to what Dad had literally said during his sharing! Dad was like "That's what I just said!" Mum was quite annoyed, like, "I haven't finished, let me finish talking????" Dad was like "??? That's what I---"

And after Mum finished talking, Dad replied again, "That's what I have talked about!" Mum said, "It's a good idea, isn't it!"

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(above convo in cantonese)

BRO so weird

anyways I couldn't reply Dad about my decisions, and Mum told Dad, let her think about it for a few days! On Thursday after having lunch we can go window shopping in furniture shops for ideas, and choose a chair she wants

(Bro)

bro bro bro I just came home from library that night and this has happened (can't imagine what it would be like when I am abroad next year)

(all because I wanted a chair, and they decided to do all this??????????

and the adjustable table was my wish from a few years ago. Now I already forfeited the wish as I realised I won't stand in the middle of work anyways. You guys are too late. And you guys KNOW what I WANT ALL THE TIME BUT JUST NEVER MENTIONED NOR FULFILLED IT

And I mentioned multiple times during yesterday I wanted a deeper table (more width)(monitor, laptop, ipad, physical papers), not a longer table, but seems they couldn't catch what I was saying and Kept saying I will have a longer table

I dont need a longer table

The air is fresher in my room

I am already accustomed to living in my room, I transformed it into my little space.

I already didn't mind using the tilted table. I'm used to it anyways.

I just need a proper comfy chair. And get rid of the old af wooden stools my dad was reluctant to discard (stools age are older than me). Remove the failing office chair (also age older than me). Remove piano from room. Add a shelf, like those ikea or muji 田田 those squareish rectangle shelf. And I can put everything inside, like clothes, other hobbyist items etc, DONE. TIDY.

They knew what I wanted all these years.

Finally, I returned to my own room. They say, our room have aircon. The air is fresher if you opened your door. Can you please open your door?

I KNEW IT, they just want me to open my door

(if I swap my room, they're thinking of reinstalling an aircon in my current pink room)(Mum (and I) thought not feasible although Dad said can)

And they wouldn't have aircon in pink room at the mean time. So if I close my door in new room, it would be "cruel" and "no filial piety" because I am not sharing my cold air with them.

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these few days I was looking at the voluntary residence in RMS and PMR for next sem1. Seems RMS rooms are bigger than my room lmfao

and ivan also said I can "late come" to their residential halls too, just to live for the final few weeks, I think it's too much of a hassle so nah

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bruh

this house too weird and many things are fixed and poorly designed. I'd rather wait a few more years until I can have a sustainable income and then rent a flat, and save money to buy my own flat

so stupid

Dad want to reuse the design of long table overlapping bed in the new room, which is so damn stupid, It sounded not as bad on paper BUt really, It is that bad, he's not the user so he doesn't understand

also he was talking about how he made my bed higher as I was younger back then. I asked, if I'm younger shouldn't you be making the bed lower instead?

He couldn't answer,, My mum was winking and smiling at him (because she agreed with me) (in a way like she's also anticipating his answer because this whole thing is funny i guess)

so damn stupid

I'm not giving up my 極樂淨土 >:(

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kept writing diary these few days. Bombarding you with so much stuff lmao

:PPPPP

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 oh today morning mum was looking at me wearing socks.

I said dont look at me

she asked me again 你係咪有啲心理問題？？

HURBISHDASKFJLANSK bruh

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Was sitting near the harbour rn after the dinner bday gathering with secondary school squad (yeep they changed it to today)

Had a shower thought this morning

Ok so I gained the ability to daydream in class in primary 2 and I autodaydream every english class in particular (classmistress). I can daydream right after greeting good morning teacher until it’s time to stand up for Goodbye teacher and time just flew by in the middle and idk what I learnt

Maybe it’s too boring, idk, but not sure how to differentiate between daydreaming and dissociating lol

And the teacher thought I were the most attentive student in class because I looked at the blackboard without moving for the entire time during every class

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Second thing, I lost my fav pencil case in primary 4, my neighbour stole it and hid it in the locker

After suspecting it’s most likely my neighbour, but she didn’t admit, so after half a month I finally told the primary 4 classmistress about it.

And the next day she educated the class and that noon my neighbour returned it to me.

However after I told my mum about this, she was angry at me. Because I alerted the teacher, and I shouldn’t be the odd one out.

Also I kinda like my primary 4 teacher back then too. And during showering I realised she resembled my secondary 4 classmistress. The kinda cool short - medium hair type but girl.

Oh.. like Ruth.

Ok i left the harbour, fuck mosquitoes, so lun itchy aaaaaaa