get well soon

 :O

get well soon

im not really that angry lah cuz you didn't say that with a malicious intent, and people aren't always perfect

and I am not that wanting to die now so it is ok

i am still slightly confused why after that random day with big headache, my thoughts seem more normal ever since, lol i guess it wasn't a bad thing when I need a relatively clearer mind for exams

lol new follow abs guy, lmaoooo so funny u wanna keep fit ?? hahahahah sent to ivan cuz he likes bigger abs but not me, but didn't dare to spam him cuz idk how he feel about the cancelled session so i cant get too energetic

hilarious hahahahahah ??

:P 

couldn't focus for fucks sake today, tmr's psyc final will probably flop, i still couldnt bring myself to study but it is past midnight already

idc... i mean my osca went well, so yeah, it was all that matters

😭mum kept knocking on my door im so fed up haha

also morning of osca exam before leaving home, i asked her if there is a traditional watch for me to wear, cuz i cant really wear smartwatch to exam

and there was not a single working watch at home, except dad's metal ones, and I don't and can't wear (too loose for my wrist + edges too sharp)

whole time my mum was super emotional and kept blaming me i asked her too late now theres none, my fault etc... meanwhile I just kept amusingly say "y u so 激動？" and I also said no watch is ok, perfectly fine, but she kept talking about the watch and panicking rushing around yelling, lmfao I'm not even panicking why u so panic, and I tried my best to not observe my own true emotions / try to ignore my emotions, and just observe

anyways i left saying i ask for a watch and i got nothing in return but a bunch of scolding right before my exam, lol

the people and friends next to me in waiting room kept telling me to not worry because my face looks very red. I dont know lol, I felt similar as usual. I always exam with this level of stress ?

so my osca was smooth (slightly dumb, i revised a question with AI the day before, the doctor raised the exact same question, but I wasn't aware theyre the same thing and "didn't know" the answer ! but everyone else (except ivan lol) doesn't know the answer so it wasn't disastrous LOL) (and i imagined and mentally prepared for all possible worst case scenarios in osca including mind blank; examiners are that professor or academic advisor or previous pbl tutors that would made me super nervous)

(all the procedures were kinda fine, so I will pass this)

kinda (slightly) annoyed but I gotta keep my mood and spirit up until I finish all my exams hehe

afternoon felt a bit bad but im not gonna indulge in the sadness, if any, but cant work either, time wasted

hope you get better :3 it is ok

and haha you start idling on the google doc, interesting

and last time commented on tuesday, very interesting

still kinda feel like it's my fault for your "sick leave" oops (ivan sent me a screenshot of his email in the morning. And now I will remember the office mofusan guy is Ursmar)

or maybe I should start becoming less self-conscious and thinking everything revolves around me

though my instinct usually works (except on Ruth), interesting

it is my prized tool, i rely on instinct on a lot of stuff since small i guess

hmmmm heuristics

sometimes i feel like that famous experiment monkey who chose the fake doll mother instead of metal mother with food ?? so pathetic every day my emotional attachment are dolls

shit i should really start cramming for the midterm, tmr 930 lmfao

but i need to wash hair first

here is a pic of riolu sunbathing. :D