11 sept: the only finding I got so far is that I have ben avoiding the fact that my relationship with Arthur, and with some of my friends (e.g. my Sushiro group), are indeed very close. Like, esp with Arthur, is very very close. But I still don't really understand why I have been trying to stay blind to this fact.
I went shisha with my exchangemates and we established our momo squad (going for hair removal in shenzhen). Heard many crazy stories from them as well, for example this girl's current bf is a previous dru g dealer and her ex was also a weed dealer. And this girl wants more excitement that she couldn't obtain from daily life and sex so she and her bf went shoplifting in uniqlo and got caught etc...
I wasn't "needing" a hair removal but they wanted to so I am just going to go along. I told Ivan about it and I told him I don't even know what the fuck am I doing right now. I also told him maybe perhaps I am actually close to Arthur, but he immediately rebutted with the point that I don't even know him much, so this is not close at all
So I was a little bit upset about this good point but Ivan sounded happy in his audio messages, I asked him why and he say because I am finally begin to 上水, I was like g, but maybe next week I sink boat again sls, and I don't think I 上 yet
12 sept: had gathering with my grass squad and drank a bit at the ktown promenade, while listening to different messy stories (of others) from friends. One of the story is a very sink ship girl and a very ultimate fuckboy who was still very in love with his ex. The sunk girl and fuckboy called each other every night and do slightly more intimate things like rubbing the girl's hair, leaning onto each other looking at each other very close (but the girl pushed the boy's face away lmfao what) etc, and they keep saying it is just a platonic friendship, but the girl obviously sunk ship, and one day the fuckboy stated clearly he does not love the girl at all and told the girl not to ff, and blocked the girl. The girl was very sad, and then the boy later apologised to the girl by saying he didn't think clearly, and then the girl sunk again.
13 sept: yesterday I was thinking if I am also the sunk ship girl but suddenly I kind of think I am sort of like the fuckboy in this case because I kept giving mixed signals
fuck
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