hmm, today afternoon while commuting I realised Ruth's haircut feels a bit like my sister (the one from Dad's another side of family) (does not look alike but the vibe is there)
also except from f2 classmistress, seems the rest of the women I liked are all short hair, wtf lol
(oh btw academic advisor has short hair) (I am not liking her that way though) (yet)
also the sister I just mentioned, her outfit style is also dark and cool, I remembered she had loads of cool looking rings as well
wooooooooooow
overall I approve her outfit vibe
bro last fri I was wearing that slightly cooler outfit (actually not that different, but I seldom wear like that on days with med lessons) and then 970 and 3-day-boy saw me at the shuttle bus station, so I said hi, and turned out they almost couldnt recognise me if I didn't say hi
(brooooooooooooo i shouldve pretended not seeing them, but my backpack would sell me out so I had to "hi"
anyways pretty weird, they asked me why am i in such punk outfit, so I made up a reason it's the last day of school lol. And they think if I am going to a punk concert or something
before that during a group lesson (that's why I bet I wouldn't see much people because it is not a whole class lecture), the kind girl that gave me bandage said oooo am i meeting someone? I said hmmmm yeah! she asked whooo, and then another groupmate joined in at the right time (really coincidentally) to ask about some exam stuff, so we just left the topic hanging and she didn't ask again hahaah
I mean if she ask I can just say "a friend" but yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhahaha
wearing my own outfits are kinda attracting unwanted attention and I don't really want that to happen (when I am with med people)
during the weekend I downloaded an app called the L, I heard it is the tinder for lesbians (and bi) (but they market towards lesbians mostly), so I signed up to have a look lmao, Im not going to find people on there for relationships definitely, I am just browsing pictures of pretty girls LMAO (serious)
hmm the "thing Im not telling" in the last entry was literally just the comic thing I let you see in person last time
hmmmmmmmm also last time you were wearing the riolu coloured shirt, just like my drawing lol, but somehow i was kinnnnnda scared hahahahaha ????? and I thought ure mad lol but I convinced myself it's probably morning grumpiness hahahashahashdhashksdf
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goals for therapy
seems like the same as before, which are incorrect
ik im not supposed to have a goal to blend in with people but for now I still think that this is safer lol
also want to clarify I dont want to "make more friends", cuz I know how to make friends if I really try to. I don't really aim to be "more approachable" too. I just want to be less scared of people and stop assuming things and scaring myself out about people lmao
and be less sensitive to shit haaahaha
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hmMMM also last time when I was sitting in the waiting room two people walked by and looked at me LOL, first one I was not sure at all...... feels a bit like ruth (cuz i dont think it's Ming) (I am not sure what Angela looks like despite seeing her once) (Idk if it's Billy because apparently his office is at the basement??) and then after a few minutes Vinci walked by smiling, this one is way easier to tell hahahaha
bro so hard to tell when the whole door is matte except that area around eye level, I dont have other cues to help me ???
>:p and I couldnt see her to look for any hint to confirm myself last time hahahaah
